True Life: I'm a Hoarder

In my last post, I briefly mentioned that I'm a recovering hoarder. Transitioning to minimalism forced me to become honest with myself. The truth was I had a bad habit of collecting and keeping things just for the sake of it. 

I know there's a psychological reason behind my hoarding though it's really easier to just blame my mom. Over the years I've noticed she also had kept things past their expiration. So I like to think it was just a bad habit that I picked up from her. If my mom can keep all her stuff from the Stone Age, then why can't I?

I don't know why my mom keeps and saves things forever and ever. There may be a deeper reason or it could be that she just likes keeping things and she'll get rid of it when she feels like it. I felt that the latter was my reasoning for hoarding. But as I was starting my minimalist journey and cleaning out stuff, I found it harder to give rid of a bulk of things. 

The reasons for me keeping things for way past their time is simple: I didn't have a lot growing up so as I got older and got my first job at 16, I was able to buy things that my mom denied me. This probably also why I kept a lot of my childhood toys for a long time too: to hold onto to the time my mom actually bought me the things I desired despite the lack of funds. These things were a reminder in some distorted way. I didn't want to let them go. I felt that by letting them go, I would never be able to get them again. 

Fast forward to ten years later and my apartment is full of shit I don't need but having a hard time getting rid of. But I knew this needed to happen and I wanted to follow through on my experiment. I took my time. I had to rationalize that it's just a material item; it can be replaced in some way if it's really that deep; I'm in a better place now financially; I don't need to keep these things anymore. 

It wasn't easy at first but it became easier over time. After reading several articles and books on minimalism and decluttering, I became more at ease. I started asking myself if these items truly bring me joy and will I use them in the near future. If the answer was no, then it had to go. If I wasn't sure, I kept it until I did my next round of donations. If it was still there and I hadn't even thought about it, adios.

I wouldn't say I'm completely cured of my hoarding tendencies. There are still things that I do collect such as mugs and crystals. I almost cried when I trashed a lot of my lipsticks. But I knew that I was not going to wear them. Now my bag collection? Yeah, I'm taking my sweet ol' time. 

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

When You Don't Want What You Prayed For

True Confessions: I Hate Therapy

Let's Talk About God